Feeling complicated!

Recently, I felt so complicated, especially after moving. When I was home alone (I men the landlord's gone to work), I felt so weird, in the morning was ok, cos I had afternoon class and I got up late, I didn't have to stay at home for a long time. However, if I got morning class, I didn't want to go back home in the afternoon, this Tuesday and today (Thrusday), I still stayed at school. I brought lunch box, fruit and enought water, stay there. I told my classmates I would had lunch at school, and then I would go to library to search books, actually this was the reason why I brought lunch. But, the main reason was that I didn't want to go this so-called "home" any more. Previously, after class, the first thing that I really wanted to do, was going home, but this time, this feeling was dissapeared. I thought that I still had lunch and study at school in the next few weeks. Now, I hoped that time could go as fast as possible, after this semester, I would go home, which was the real home in China.

When I was young, I really loved to watch an American sitcom Growning Pains, I still remembered clearly that both presents and children had pains, but this sitcom just used the comedy to illustrate this pains and made audiences laught. Now it's my turn, I could understand when people grew they would had pains, no matter it's the big trouble or a small piece. To be honest, I was distrubing by something, such as study, the relationship between other people... I really hoped this world could be easy rather than complex, so that we could alive relaxed. sigh... I wanna go home. I would forget Sydney temporary and when I came back with a good mood, there was no bored no frustrating.

Does "angel" have pains???